Tag: creative writing

  • Untitled from a Mountain

    Untitled from a Mountain

    Take me on a mountain top,

    brown cascades and rusty dirt lodged

    beneath our skin, sequestered

    under nails, dried tumbleweed

    scratched along my back – red white

    welts in swirled, tangled streams.

    Take me on a mountain top,

    with heaven watching down ahead

    a constant judgement brokered

    only by the stars and eagles

    soaring overhead – desert air

    100 miles over sea, a fall of dust  

    dried against my forehead.

    Take me on a mountain top.

    Take me fast or slow, long or soft,

    just make it on a mountain top,

    one with bears and antelope

    fracture our restraints with chains

    and cleave the earth in two,

    smoky ground and dampened musk.

    Two bodies merge like beasts.

  • Coast to Coast

    Coast to Coast

    From the striped plateaus, burnt red by western sun,

    dull blades of sandstone carved by the ocean’s hands,

    scattered with green spruce, firs, and dried sagebrush,

    and waterfalls trickling down slick stone bands,

    where I watched horned goats pounce on vertical cliffs 

    and climbed cave-bound rockslides in the dirt cloud’s midst. 

    From the Pacific’s rain-steeped tea of salt and mountain air 

    brewing fresh sprout lichens on cedar bark,

    where deep green mountains basked in sheets of fog,

    obscuring the ever fading horizon line,

    where I fed seagulls at the pier from dirt caked palms,

    and learned to sing to pitch with cawing birds.

    From the moss and willow strung foliage of the south,

    draped arches over murky green canals,

    swarming mayflies evading lumpy frogs,

    algal blooms coating the surface of the deep Bayou,

    where alligators basked scorched on flattened grass

    and I found adventure, swimming under docks.

    From the snow coat hills of the frigid north, battered

    by icy wind that buried broken life,

    with only oak and pine to counter the constant white

    until yellow buds explode in spring’s first breath

    where deer leave hoof prints in fresh snow each dawn,

    and I cleansed the Earth’s dirt lodged beneath my nails.

    From the east’s walls of trees that locked away the sky,

    but crumbled where the world met the shore,

    warmed by gulf storms rippling up the sea,

    waves disappearing behind the curve of the Earth,

    where sea birds dipped where the sky met the sea, 

    and I wished to wander forever, in distant depths.

    From the flat, muddy banks framing the Mississippi, 

    encircled by cotton fields, bordered by twig-like trees,

    where flowers bloomed duller each spring,

    basted in ship’s gray fog,where cranes 

    stood on single legs, submerged in puddled fields,

    and I left the caravan that carried me, to journey on my own. 

    My roots are sprawled and broken, ripped apart in shifting ground,

    grasping on to rocks on mountain tops,

    nourished with the sea of forest air,

    shouting, stretched in webs and moss,

    burying into snow until the season’s thaw, 

    forever fighting towards an eroding shore,

    and severed in the muddy flats that were never home.

    My roots are crawling, wandering to the world’s end,

    and maybe one day they’ll dig in deep,

    to find the ancient soil down below.

    Perhaps one day they’ll tie me home,

    but for now I’ll wander everywhere

    to see the world’s hidden coves.

    I’ll wander everywhere and travel coast to coast. 

  • That Moment

    That Moment

    The lights dim. The music starts, some sort of song specifically engineered to release Oxytocin into your bloodstream. The camera pans up and down the actor’s bodies as they hold their noses close enough to brush and yet, never kiss, as if that single touching of the lips would suspend all the suspense that the filmmakers dedicated hours to making. Hollywood has boiled romance down to a scientific art. They make a grand declaration or sacrifice—run across an airport, blare a radio beneath their window, apologize for every thing they’ve ever done wrong—and then softly they whisper, “I love you.” And just like that the adrenaline races further than it did before. It’s the moment of perfect intimacy that some directing genius dedicated their life to manufacturing, in a single film shot of a camera lens. It’s at this moment that they look in love, the most vulnerable, and so they do what everyone wants. They explore and taste and roam with their eyes sealed shut and their breath heavy. They learn each other in the most physical of ways, and the audience is meant to swoon at their filmed consummation.

    No one has ever told me they loved me. No one has offered me any heartfelt speeches, but I’m no stranger to physical vulnerability. That’s all they ever want, to touch, to taste, to try, to roam. The bed sheets crease and the room grows hotter. Two bodies entwined and yet, every time I fear that if I touch too soft, or look too high that they’ll pull away from me. I know that’s never what they want, for me to promise that I love them, to tell them that I care. We’re just bodies, and this is just life, and we’re just having fun, so who fucking cares.

     I’ve never seen my parents kiss, but I’ve seen my father hold my mother. The way their bodies molded together, two individuals not yet defeated, holding each other together. He held her hand and brushed her hair from tear born eyes. He softly kissed her forehead, soft and sweet and nothing more. I want someone to want to hold me, to touch my hair because it’s soft, to kiss my cheek or nose with no intent of wanting more. I want them to hold my soul within their hand and to feel as calm as she did when he held her. It’s the kind of moment that would never make it to the Hollywood screen. It’s boring and tame, perfectly mundane. No one writes that they want to be held. Everyone just wants to be loved, but for me, I think to be held, just once, would be enough.